As the new year comes, everyone is excited making their New Year’s resolution or setting up their goals. And for some people, even planning their activities for the whole year.

Some people act on it to achieve it, but most of the people, I know, don’t do it at all.

For 30 years of my life, I am one of those people who don’t make action to achieve my goals or resolution. But this year, I will make a difference… because this 2017, I will do it all. I just hope God will guide me, always.

I will just make my goals very simple so I will not have a hard time doing it:

  • To lose weight – I am currently 71 kg. My goal is around 50 kg and maintain it
  • To have a job that can promise a stable and fruitful long-term career for me
  • To finish putting all my photos in my photo album
  • Print out and hard bound all my finished stories

Wish me luck!



~ Late post ~

December 6, 1986 – There’s a couple in the hospital who are expecting to have a child. But the doctor said “Sorry not yet. Come back tomorrow.” Even the wife is in pain, the husband still decides to go home and wait.

And tomorrow comes, December 7, a baby girl has been born. They were surprise because they thought they were having a boy. But deep inside of the wife’s heart is rejoicing because she didn’t want to have a boy.

30 years later, the baby turned into a woman.

That’s how I tell my story. I thought it would be a good idea for my 30th year milestone to tell my story to my readers because 30 years is a very long time, there are lots of good memories to tell. But I’m surprise, and quite disappointed, that I don’t have much to tell. Looking back at my life when I was a child to teenage years, well there’s nothing to tell because I’m just an ordinary invisible girl who tried hard to blend in. Sadly, I failed. But I did have one achievement and that was, when I became one of the CAT leader during my senior year. *Note: CAT is a military training for highschool students.* I considered this to be one of my achievement because I’m a shy-type kind of person. Plus, I lose a lot of weight. Unfortunately, I recovered fast.

During my twenties, I graduated college (another achievement) and strive to build a promising career. After 5 jobs for the duration of 10 years, I’m still a failure. But I’m not fully disappointed because I did have a job as a writer, my dream job. Sadly, the company filed for bankruptcy.

In my thirties, I honestly don’t know what to expect. I just hope, and pray, that it will be fruitful both for my career and personal life. Also, good health for me and my family.



In one point in every girl’s life/childhood, they owned a Barbie doll. In my opinion, it’s one doll that will always be in demand…  and be a girl’s best friend.

And for some people, their fondness to Barbie still lives on until they grew up. *Guilty*

I had my first Barbie doll when I was, I think, 7 years old. It was my birthday gift from my parents. I didn’t really ask for it they just assumed that I would loved it since… it was a Barbie doll. Who wouldn’t love a Barbie doll right?

But that time, I didn’t know its value. I’m just happy to receive it because it was MY toy… just for me. *Side note: I have four other siblings, so, all the toys that our parents’ bought need to be shared to one another.*

But I still shared it to my sisters. They helped me sew clothes, and cut our brand new socks and make a dress out of it. My mom was furious when she saw that, and for the first time she smacked us with a stick. It was really scary. But we knew it was our fault so we just apologize after.

29 years after, I’m still in love with Barbie dolls. I’m still buying, not for me of course, but for my Godchild. For me, it’s my way on sharing them my wonderful experience with Barbie when I was at their age; hoping they will have it too.

Anyway, you may ask why all of the sudden I’m talking about Barbie.

Well May 1 of this year was my nephew’s 4th birthday. So my sisters and I decided to bring him in Toy Kingdom and let him decide what toy to buy. Knowing my nephew, he really took his time running around looking to one toy to another, then weigh which toy he likes best.

And while he was doing that, I visited the Barbie section just to check if they have a new Limited Edition doll. I wasn’t expecting to see something great since there are no occasions like holidays or special events. But my eyes wide-opened when I saw this



I started to count my money mentally, just to know if I can afford it. Sadly, I don’t. I asked my sister and even my dad, but they said ‘NO!’ My dad even told me that I’m 29 years old… I’m too OLD to play it.

I wanted to contest, but decided not to because they had a point. So I just let it go.

But for my birthday this coming December, I hope and prayed, someone will give this to me as a gift.

*Finger crossed*



Every writer/author have their own unique way to kill their characters. That is why I created Killing 101, to show everyone my strategies on how to kill MY characters. It serves as a challenge to me since I am not familiar with other means of killing like torture, accidents, and cannibalism. But now I can say, I improved on those areas. Well, I need more practice that’s for sure and killing 101 segment in my blog is a good platform for it.

Anyway, I back read all the stories I wrote and realized, I have 6 good stories already since I began. I don’t know if it is only my own opinion that it is a good series like Goosebumps & Are you afraid of the dark. Even I am not sure, I decided to compile it all and officially made it a short story series. I already posted it on my Booklat & WattPad page with 2 new stories. So, if you have spare time I hope you can read it sometime.

#RememberanInspiringOcean Halloween special: Killing 101 series


So far, this is the busiest year of my life. There are lots of things going on in my life – both good and bad. For the bad days, I’m trying my best to look at the brighter side of it.

Anyway, my birthday is just few weeks away. I am turning 30 so I’m not that excited. Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful for reaching 30. But in terms of the things that a 30-year old person should have, *sigh*, I am not even close. My career, still no luck. And since my career is such a failure, so as the financial aspect of my life. It sucks!

But I’m not losing hope since the year doesn’t end yet. So, there is still a chance that it might change from sucks to wow!

While I am waiting for that to happen, I will just keep myself busy by organizing my social media account and checking my list of things to be done before I turn 30.

I will just start to the latter part.

One of my goals before turning 30 is to read 30 books. Unfortunately, that is way too far from reality. So, I just change it to finish all my pending stories. And I am happy to say that I finished writing & editing one of my pending stories with a title: KILLING 101: TORTURE. Also, I’ve finished a new story with a title: KILLING 101: DELICIOUS REVENGE.

I am quite proud to myself since I never finished before two stories in one day. It’s a new record for me, yay! (NOTE: I will add this to my bucket list before I turn 30)

Next, I am planning to compile all the stories I wrote in my blog and as well as the stories I contributed to other blogs, which is Maldita’s Society. GOOD NEWS: As of yesterday, I finished compiling all my stories. I am just giving it a quick edit before I print it.

So far so good.

Now, I am going to proceed in organizing my social media accounts.

For my blog, I will have certain changes like I will no longer post my new stories in here. When I started blogging, that is my only goal – to post in here my stories to raise audience and reach out to other writers around the world. But now, with all the new platform in the web, I realized that a blog is not a good platform for it anymore. (NOTE: this is only my opinion)

My blog will now serve as a news bulletin for my new stories with proper links to my Wattpad & Booklat page.

Also, I will add ‘Niña Loves Pink’ here in my blog. I finally decided to delete ‘Niña Loves Pink’ blog because having two blogs requires too much work. I also deactivated my Tumblr, Facebook, and Remember an inspiring ocean Twitter account. I am now using my personal Twitter account for my blog.

Now I can confidently say that I can fully concentrate in writing my stories. No more distraction, I hope.


Not in the mood to kill

I know it’s not a good title, but that’s what I feel right now.

Killing a character is my passion. I can’t write a story without killing any of my characters. And I don’t need to be in the mood to do it. Once I grabbed a pen and a pad, nobody can stop me from writing… even food can’t stop me. I will just write and write, killing one character to another.

But now, I just can’t.

I thought this is another writer’s block. But it’s not! I have the will to write, I’m so ready to make another kill. But my mood is not into it. Is this another sign of aging?

Anyway, I just hope I can get over this feeling soon because I have a lot of stories to finish. *sigh.